Just reviewing my posting around the time I did 20/20 seems like this is another time for a similar challenge.

While this time it is primarily going to be on my own I have others to measure myself against, which is always good. However, I think this is  something I want to expand beyond food and exercise for aesthetic reason. This is generally getting back to the original plan.

Here I go again, wish me luck. Will keep y'all posted.

• Once a week dietician appointment
• 3 times a week appoint with personal trainer for 1.5 hours (2 more self directed 1.5 hours of exercise recommended)
• Bi-weekly appointment with a psychotherapist
• Bi weekly appointments with a doctor

 I think this article is interesting especially the section on ABCDE of conflict (with your self)

Adversity - realistic picture of what adversity you are facing

Belief - your beliefs about the situation, some of which might not be based on fact

Consequences - clearly and rationally evaluate the consequences of the first two

Dispute - routine belief to break cycle of pessimism

Energize - Energize yourself to change whatever negativism you have

These makes sense to me, more so this weekend, when someone special to mean said they are a "mean" person. Under the guise of people should be who they are. While I agree with that "ism" in general, I think this is the wrong context, the point of most of live and civilization not to mention Christianity is to change who we are so we can have a better life.

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MSN Health & Fitness - Four Paths to a Happier You

This is a common saying when I was growing up, but is it really? One of those truisms that is not really true.

I love living in Seattle, beautiful morning driving over the bridge, amazing view, blaring hiphop and in my best - ABM (Angry Black Man) mood. I am sure, I can take on the world. However, I need to start by taking on myself. I was at work at 7am beautifully working through the issues of the day, when my mentors IMed. I said, "hey man, you are at work early", he said "this is how people work at MS" I said "Well, I am learning..." he said "you will not beat me" and I said "I won't try, I just have to beat myself" End of conversation.

Seemingly innocuous conversation, right? No. That conversation is loaded, it shows the culture here. This is a place where you can absolutely do your best work, people are very competitive and I doubt anyone is ever satisified. I think we all know it, but to keep trying keep pushing harder than anyone else is why we are here.

I am back to reading what I called my fundamental books again, this are books I read on my bedside. Those that I used to motivate myself, including the bible of course. From time to time I will share the things I am learning from the books here.

Lesson 1: Have a deep sincere desire to learn and excel at human relations.